About Me

Years of staying under the 'hell fire preaching' caused me to have a view of God as an angry, unloving God. I was living under condemnation. Other times I heard He was loving. I was so confused because I knew either He is a loving God or He isn't. He can't have two characters like many human beings. 


For many days I would weep trying to beg God to please accept me back after messing up. I was frustrated with my performance. But in February of 2010, I encountered God's unconditional love and it changed me. For two weeks I felt like I was in heaven. God even broke satanic attacks. He showed me who I am in Him. Immediately those tormenting dreams left. As a matter of fact, when I had one dream where this demonic looking creature came to attack me, in the dream I stood my ground and was bold in Christ. I have never had such a tormenting since then.

I am still growing in the Lord and there are areas where God is still dealing with me. But one this is sure, I don't have to fear my Father. He doesn't condemn me anymore. This causes me to live for Him in the way He desires. I depend on His grace to take me further. I began to really understand it was no more about rules, right or wrong, or principles. It was about a relationship wih Christ where we allow Him to manifest His life through us while we rest in Him. I still am recovering from religion and the whole 'works' mindset.

My name is Santhosh and I just recently received a glimpse of the Father's Love for me. I hope to share  with you what I learn in my grace walk.

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